...

Dissolved into fantasies i think i'm starting to forget how you really were. Human brain is not that strong anyway. But i don't want to forget. All those things.

That talk we had that day... no matter how i treasure it... it wasn't that special... it was just a normal talk...

at least that's what i realized after so many years

but still

for me it was special

how you talk about your family or your future plans... about hobbies... that anime we both like... the reason you want to go to the planetarium... or the fact that we both like starry skies

and

of course

that one time you tell me that we need to meet again one day

i might get it wrong

or anything like that

but it was the first time

the first time someone actually appreciate my existence

well at least that's how i thought about it

that day... and the moment we met.. for me it was special... but then again... it might just be a normal day... for everyone else

i knew that

so i hid this feeling

"maybe for some other time" i thought

but now

no matter how many times i shout it out to the sky

it won't reach you

and now... i'm starting to forget how you really were... everything i know starts to distort... into an uncontrollable fantasy

and i realized

i don't know you enough

it's not enough

and will never be enough

and that's what i regret the most

that's the actual reason why i want to go back really far to the time before that time

so i can meet you earlier

and know you better