when?

you know...

I just forgot when did i start to stop caring about all these stuffs. School, life, actually trying to be a decent person, or trying to pusue my dreams. There was this particular point of my life that happened to be the time when i say "fuck it, let's just play games," and then i just did it.

Well a part of me actually cares about those stuffs. That's what this anxiety means afterall. But the stronger part of me just doesn't want to do anything at all. "Don't even try, nothing will happen anyway."

Well, in the end i still study and try to keep up with all these medical school crap. But yeah, i don't know if i can even be a decent doctor...

or a decent human being.